if i was to talk about the words, they would hurt

i'm collecting pieces of my fragmented mind ever since the monday's ritual

the moon one

they said it would have a direct affect on my mind and one's hability to manipulate somone else's mind

i don't know yet about the latter, but man... am i going insane?

since then, i'm having absolute weird, vivid and anxious dreams that are, somehow, attacking and reminding myself of my upmost hability of self sabotage

specially right now

i'm going through so much right now

i've been here before, but i'm a different person now, so it is not a retrocess - i tell myself

everytime i try to become the new me, the old one comes knocking the door, threatening to burst the fuck out of my head and win the battle

but it won't

it fucking won't

so you can keep visiting me in my sleep, that's ok

i'm winning this time

and when i finally do,

damn...

beware.

"If I was to talk about the words
They would hurt, they would hurt
So if you were to ask about the pain
I would lie, I would lie
To fix my mind, I need time"

Zombie - Yungblud