My sweet redhead,
My love for you will remain to eternity. I felt so stupid that day... I shouldn't have said those things.
You know I didn't mean that. Every single day I regret what I did.
I know it's the price I have to pay for my faults and sins.
But you, my dear, you had nothing to do with that! I prayed for the Lord to take me away in your place!
They could take my life, I'm a useless man... But I guess I'm worse than I thought...
I had to deal with your absense, despite all my guilty. But what they don't know is that I'm barely alive;
I breath but I can't feel anything anymore, beside your absense;
I walk but I have nowhere to go;
I talk but nobody can hear my soul screaming;
And now I know I could handle your marriage with that guy, you know..
I could. I did.
But I can never handle the fact that you're gone. If only I could stay away from my memories..
There were those nights in which I pray to God for you to stay away from my head, but you're the only thing that keep me alive. You should know that.
My dear... our love could never be. You took another road. I can never blame you.
I love you to pieces.
Now, in my last hour, I beg for forgiveness.
And pray for the Lord to be kind with this poor and old soul, who carried a love with no boundaries and bigger than his forces.
Let me see you one more time, my darling...
Pretend you forget all my mistakes and keep your lovely green eyes on me.
There is no need to feel sorry for me; I don't know where I'm going but I will be alright.
I know I won't be close to you, but I can't stay here anymore.
There is no home for me here, and I don't know if I will be able to find home in somewhere else.
I found home once. It was you.
I pray someday I can run to home again. I miss everything so much.
How many lives I'll must live until I find you again, sweetheart?
My love will just grow, and so will this pain inside my soul.
I know you will never know what lingers inside this old heart, and I will never have the chance to feel you in my arms again, but if a miracle happened today, I would waste my breath with the words that are haunting my soul for so long:
For those who love, my dear
There's no such thing as death
And I
I loved you since the first day
Then I
I will love you until my dying day.
Always yours,
Sev.
